At the age of 26, I taught my first yoga class (as a substitute for a friend), and that was the very first moment in my adult life when something I did felt like I was born for it. It flowed effortlessly! I was not used to that at all. I was accustomed to always working hard mentally to fit in so that others would accept me.

 

At this moment, I could feel a wholehearted YES for the first time and dared to take the leap. I quit my job, found part-time work that suited me better, and enrolled in a four-year yoga teacher training programme.

 

The first year of the training was entirely focused on our own process. I learned to meditate, and slowly my body began to relax. Beneath all the tension, I discovered so many feelings and emotions. I didn't understand anything about what I was feeling, and I frequently cried and sat with my hands in my hair, thinking, 'I feel so much, and I understand absolutely nothing!'

 

In the following years, I began to feel and understand myself and my feelings better. I also encountered my sexual energy and sexuality. Gradually, I started to enjoy sex more and more.

 

A second wholehearted YES came when I participated in Layla Martin's Sacred Sexuality programme. I felt that my next step would be Layla's coaching training. Once again, I quit my job and took the leap.